hello babies.
on a lighter note, i'm back from cheerobics 2008. (:
oh wells, 16th of march seemed to be a perfect day for me, where championship was clinched, the bracey boy was back to my arms. hooray for me and not forgetting seeing many supporters came down and cheered for us, touched me alittle. everlasting words which kept me going on and on. and all i could say it was a sweet victory. and thankyou for the love one for all his luck and love. <3

back to the braceyboy.
its been a month we started dating after 20 months of separation. and i would love or even longed to see him each day. the effort that we made to meetup when i'm having offdays. and right now, its been like near a week since i last saw him. the familiar smell still lingers, and companion was superb awesome. sometimes, we made little mistakes which made the relationship turned sore, stubborness made it worse. the fact that i didnt deny was i sucked at words and expressing. but the truth is, it could be really sweet and enjoyable when the both of us met. shrugs. i cant wait to see you, bracey.

and i really miss him like HELL lots!!!
yongchuan, please call me!! for your absence would kill me further even if its just one second!

right now. i'm just too tired to think. or even bother. sometimes, i think that i'm just redundant, but i appreciate people who told me how important i am to them.

yes yes yes, i told my friends how happy i'm outta MAG*** now, without trainings and stuff but i'm i will miss all of you, friends from the same batch, and some of juniors. memories = PERFECT, cancelling the parts where shit happens. (: a load off which was pretty great for me.

hugs!
xiang, tomorrow will be a better day.


miss me a dozen, kiddos!!
i'll be on hiatus for 2 frigging whole weeks of healthy diary products.
and i pray HARD THAT i'm able to sneak in some puddings!

oh wells,
during this period of time.
i'll be training and running like hell lots.
i'll be complaining alot but it doesnt matter.
i'll be sharing a room with my girls.

so once again,
MISS ME A DOZEN TRILLION BILLION, kiddos.
for i'll miss you all, plus my always-never ending nagging mom, papa and that idiotic brother.
(:

till then.
when i see you all again.
to bring back some good news.
and see my usual big huge HORRENDOUS SMILE.
and of course, a slimmer body. HAA!


and POOM, i'm off to bed.
go to sleep! and dont DREAM.
beeeeeeecause that means, you are sleeping like a log!
how nice. yes. i know.

bye.





i didnt realise i snipped it off and it grew back (:
wonders of hair, isnt it?
and this time round i'm gonna keep it long. real long. permed it with huge large waves like michelle chia! HAA!
sorry hair dressers, marcus, i wouldnt be able to let u earn my buckaroos for hmmm, maybe around 6 months? lols!

well,
just let me play hard and enjoy my life for these few days.
till then, i will sleep like a log after those draining training hours. and so BYEBYE to insomnia.
with milk and cereal everyday.
and hopefully i'll be able to shed like crazy and be skinny like nicole richie.
HEH. how nice. i'll be able to fit into all my spag tops and jeans and all those dresses!
girlfriends meet up real soon, cause i will be say bye bye to magnum.
and i will have tonnes of minutes and seconds in my life to say hello to LOVE.
yesyes, my moolaakee.


loves, pictures upload at LJ, much easier.
movie later and chillax at cafes, cool beans!


lovelove XXOO, xiang (:


ive turned to this blog for more personal feelings for this online diary left too much memories i had over the pass few years. and part of me would still want the existence of my LJ partly i can lock it and people who hate me to core will not gossip anything they thought they know/ assume.


CONGRATULATIONS if YOU CAN FIND THIS LINK.
and YAYS! i'll shift again. (:


over these pass 2 years, i dont deny i grew alot. FAR much more than you guys expected. no offence, plainly because i love myself so much that i couldnt bear any more visible scars that is gonna THROW STRAIGHT on my face ANYMORE. PROTECTING myself has eventually become the most prior in my life though i still wanna have fun once in a while.

sometimes i ask myself if my first breakup resulted how i think now and how i want my future bf would like to be. and maybe some reasons why i did not accept any guys who woo me for the pass two years. OH yah! dont ever ask me about my second bf, cause i dont think i remember him even his face at all. and the entire 2 weeks tgt was just a WHITE LIE cause ive never met some one who is so CAPABLE TO LIE to me every single day till the truth falls from his frigging mouth weeks later. regardless of numerics: i have one ex boyfriend.

closer friends like you girls ask me if me and yq would ever patch back. i have an uncertain NO. Simply because the both of us have changed, hopefully for the better. (: and yes, from time to time i do miss him, for i know he is the one only guy who love me till death and even kissed my flaws if i had one. he is not a mr nice i would say but at least, some one who is true to you. the almost a year half together was not for NOTHING. it builds up lots and tonnes of memories and nightmares we had created. everywhere says something about us. every weekend will be filled with our laughters and naggings. we talked so much, about our future about our everything.


and maybe i think he is in love with someone else now and of course, i will certainly bless him with all my blessings, for i just want him to be happy with who he is with, and his girl will be deifinitely like a big baby girl cause he will be like a nanny taking care of her every needs. maybe thats what he really wants which will make him for who he is (: HAA.


yays, this is so much like a cycle. karma had HIT me now. looking how badly he was hurt by me years ago, and how every claws of mine had scratched him hard. saying lies to him and want him to forget me entirely, blogged about how happy i am now and want him to think that my life is so complete without him. but theres one thing i want to confess that he might mistaken ehich was so impt to me. well, till then, if he wants to know. i felt so childish now, realising this sacrifice was like a DOOM. and assumptions like i break up with him because i dont like him was a hell NO. and sometimes i thought retribution will strike back to me if we patch back cause i cant afford to lose anyone i love anymore. or rather, i will want to enjoy my singlehood though i will miss the presence of that guy whom i'm upmost comfortable with. the guy who helped me in my assignments, printing out of thick notes when common test is drawing near, bought my favourite choice of icecream and not afraid that i will grow fat and will crush his bed badly if i tug into his blacket. and i remember the times i will grumble if he doesnt want to meet me. and one xmas season he had to go out of spore with his relatives which nearly got me fuming and upset. despite the kingkong movie which companied us in the noon, it wasnt enough. and i wonder where he had kept the cross-stich patchwork which i did for him. well, theres alot more. breathless if i had to list them down. it was a welldone 2005-2006.


and i thought every choice i made was right. thinking that i would be so happy to see people wooing me. but hell no, i hate the fact when i reject people again and AGAIN, for i know this day will be my turn.

and just before i head for my 1 mth training a few more days later- (with first 2weeks (wed off) and able to go home) LAST 2 weeks- trainings daily except sunday (home sweet home)) you guys will listen to more of my whinings and maybe i will cry alot cause i know it will be hard/draining.

blah blah blahhhhh....

last but not least,

one thing that i cannot deny is my immune is getting so much weaker that i think i can DIE any time. my heartbeat is beating super irregular and sometimes i cant even feel even a thing and i would tug inside my blanket and cry. i so wanna do a whole body checkup real soon but i'm afraid of the results. no worries, i'll just be cheerful as i am for now cause i just want every single day to be filled with my laughters and to spend with people i love. and of course, people who love me.


(: SMILES.

教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛

像你告白的声音动作一直很轻

微笑看你送完信

转身离开的背影

喜欢你字迹清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧

有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心

日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停

出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定

但亲爱的那并不是爱情

就像来不及许愿的流星

再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻

但亲爱的那并不是爱情

就像是精灵住错了森林

那爱情错的很透明

(:

the look alike smile, surrendered the mind.
the fast speed tyres, reminded of fond memories.
the big gobbling eyes, looked into mine.

stay healthy. i'll be there when you need my hand to pull you up.
stay happy. i'll be in your dreams to bless your souls.

take care dude (:





the whole in-house/attachment thingy is driving my like super ultimate crazy i tell you. i've received mails from my mentor and project head and stuffs. and emails like meeting them on the 27th, and hopefully i can remember. and ARGH!! kill me kill me. just because of the CPROGRAMMING which is driving me like coconuts. and blame the lecturer for setting such irritating questions which i dont understand. and blame him for not passing me.
& oh wells, my pip lecturer decided to be a nice fair lady passed me with that mod. and ever since the first day of my camp, my momma has been bugging for my results like decades and the mood was totally turned off. the following days were slightly better because i never think of it or rather i dont wish to recall. but but but, the moment i reached home, i heard those naggings again. haiyoos, just let me off for once can.
aiights. done with my babbles.

& & indeed i did catch some sleep and yeap! the ache frm the neck,shoulders,biceps were all gone! super hoooray i tell you.
had my breakfast for lunch. eyebrow trimmed near my place. bought groceries home. bought a new black school flats + a mango/zara inspired jacket. & cabbed home summore. & supposedly, the money is to be saved for me to get myself a wristlet but now all gone for theseee. tsktsk):

and my room is in a huge big mess. bags all thrown over, dresses/tops/leggings/shorts/nightgowns all thrown over my chair. &look pretty like a sty yeah. oh wells, i dug momma's vintage bags today! haha.

hmmms, training tomorrow.
byee.


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yesterday was staying at home, though i seemed to be rotting for the whole day. but you see, its still uber greatJOY!
i've been constantly entering the kitchen looking for food to eat, digging the parents cabinet for extra large clothes =/, or going to the living room, on the teevee and start to watch those hk serials. ya ya! watched the devil wears prada and material girls online. so the day might be so call pretty well spent yeah. haha
and and home cooked food is still the best (:

shall get myself prepared abit, cause theres training later. work tml. then camp for the coming weekends. whooooooshhhhh! bye.
with loves <3





the stairs is love.





at isetanwith our purchases..


cyn left first.
peishi with me walking aimlessly in town.
she subscribed a newly launched magazine.a year for 15$.the magazine itself was 5$
and many15% discounts for some retail stores. cheap like siao.


today was another working day(:


cyn took these with her sis's bigbigcam.


lunch cum dinner(:


then the shooting of dresses/tops :D






end of work.
homesweethome.

training was cancelled due to the number of people suffering from sore eyes.
&right now, i feel alittle itch on the right eye.
&my skin is peeling
cause it is burnt from the sun from the camp.
& i look like some shedding snake.?
ewws.
wells, takecare people.

with loves(:


I'M BACK FROM MAGNUM ANNUAL BONDING CAMP!
yes. like finally. and i miss the home so much.
but the most important thang was what we've been through the 3days.
& i admit that i had been crying and whining to go home, and seeing my skin worsening each day, i just couldnt stay any more longer.

this three days had been especially fruitful and i guessed most of the guys have cleared their minds off and work towards a common goal. plus i know it might be a long and tough fight towards the future, however with each other constant words of encouragement and standing with one another no matter what, everything can be accomplished.
yes. sessions where by we tried to convey our messages and incidents that had been stucking in our minds for like goodness sake, and all those kuku-shits have been hell and stuffs. but at least, i knew that people are still truthful and dying to overcome whatever obstacles which are blocking in front of them.

i have to say everyone has been given chances and they are for each and everyone to fight for. whoever shows the result gets the opportunity, and if you were to give up, sit there, do nothing, and waiting it to pop by for you, seriously, nth can be done. and you can just bang the wall.
looks like i must bang the wall. heh.

because of being lost
because of influence
because of miscommunication
because of misinterpretation
because of judgement
because of gossips
because of pressure&stress
because of the lack of confidence
because of limits
because of prioties
we were stucked in the decision making.

but
because of those hugs
because of the words we gave each other
because of confidence and trust we have for each other
because of how truthful you have been
because of the sweat we've been through together
because of those constant reminders to make us back on paths
because of teamwork
because of how great to be in the team working together
because we know that no matter what, its a joyful thing to be in the team
because each and everyone contributes, and are equally important
because i couldnt forget days we cried together
because i couldnt forget the tears of joy
because i couldnt forget the days some people stood by me
thatswhy, MAGNUM IS STILL LOVE.

i knew that i've been doubtful and losing the way towards what i really want. & always showing a whatever or anything face, but i'm really really zillion grateful to those who cheered me on and uber appreciate their efforts which make me feel wanted.
plus, i've got tonnes and tonnes to say but its diff for me to list all of them here. without these people, without the faith you people had for me though i know what standard i'm in now and what capabilites i have, i'm already glad that you people chose to stick with me and tell me whats correct and wrong. yaa, i knew that i'm not a strong willed person, and giving up has been part of what i have been going through, this camp had totally changed my perspectives in my life, be it just for magnum, but it definitely the entire path i'm going through in future.

and yaa, keow(the in-charge in my grp) was uber motherly.
i could recalled when she told me how she felt and commented how a person i'm like, i couldnt control but let out whats left in me, next, i saw her taking out her specs and was crying. i was like shit! damn! it was just 3days, & she could understand and observe everyone of us in the group and gave her best to advice us, hoping that we could live our lives to the fullest.

okaysokays.

i'll stop whining bout going home, cause next will be training camp. YES! NEXTWEEK.
tonnes to be said, but still, i love each and everyone of you and definitely MAGNUMFORCE(:


okays. its 5am now and i'm still HALF AWAKE.
yepps, theres magnum's bonding camp tml and i have not dig out my sleeping bag, my toothbrushe/toothpaste, medications, plates&mugs and stuffs.

today was catching those numbers movie with the love ones. first was 1408 then 881.

please clap cause i spent half of the movie tix to freak myself out and i can still remember how amy& i screamed our lungs out in the theatre. OHman! i cant imagine myself sleeping in the bunk tml!! plus its the seventh month. eeeeeks.

after 1408 was 881 with zhijun,emilyc&friends. it was funny though i had quite a hard time understanding the hokkien. the last part was just plain SAD. tsktsk. OKAYS, from now on i'll try to appreciate Hokkien songs!

wells, I STILL CANT BELIEVE THAT I'M GOING FOR THE CAMP IN 2 HOURS TIME!

&i'll be away for 3days.MIND YOU.


sorry for the lack of updates.


saturday's EGM turned out to be great, the fashion show was smooth and the models did change their uniforms like super uber zoom zoom zoom! thanks a zillion million times to serena,amy,citra, jen, KL, andra&lenny for being such supportive models. heh. it was seriously draining everyone of us as we haf to come back for rehearsals and stuffs before training, and non training days.
However, it was all worth it.
the songs were really fantastic& the vedio was the URGHH thing!
and SO, it turned out to be a rather emotional night.

had kolo-mee with the girls and it was homesweethome!

ytd was first day working at fareast.
& peishi, cyn, eeling, emilyc, zhijun& jannies came visiting. XIEXIE peishi&cyn for getting lunch for me, ps&emilyC for looking after the shop for a few minutes cause i had to rush to the ladies. YA YA, i still remembered the two shops beside mine, was like competing LETS-SEE-WHOS-PLAYER-IS-THE-LOUDEST. left was, chinesePOP, right was techno. CAN DIE RIGHT!

so i blasted mine for bout half an hour and i gave up. staring into the thin air where time passes that slow ytd. couldnt make it to dion's bbq cause i had a hard time entertaining the two aunties, cause they requested something which is young for them, so i did recommend some, &they said it looked too old on them. zzz. aunties are really hard to entertain.
next was the accounts part, where most of my hair fall off due to this. first, was shortage of 10$ then was an additional of 0.5$. since it was better to have more than less, i closed the shop and went to BK to slack with the girls.
joined zj's friends for HKcafe and caught EVAN's ALMIGHTY.
cabbed home&drop dead on the bed. the irritating techno beats were still hovering which is super disturbing.

its the late afternoon now..

with love <3


yesyesyes.
i know its the holidays. &its time for us to meetup!
but, these few days had been fucking uber shagged. with the aching thighs, its an extra NO for me to go out. i've started to detest climbing up and DOWN the stairs, sitting DOWN at the toilet bowl to shit, walking DOWN the road to school, &even strolling hurts alot.
plus, sometimes those muscles give waywhile i'm walking, and i sorta wobble abit out of the sudden, AHHHHH!
worse still i acted as if i was fine &walk abit faster. mind you! the muscles are crying in pain!

aiights folks, thats all.
&before i go,

happy attachment-ing cyn&pei(:




true enough,
i seriously miss this old calssmate.
&it was duper random that we chatted till the days we had home econs like a few hundred years agooo? &the lemon juice part! HAHA.

we poured the most important role of the day into the sink and then realise it was the lemon juice that we wanted for the makin of lemonade. &we even threw the squeezed lemons into the bins! plus the fact that we knew the whole practical had to be graded, we took the lemons in the bin and try our best to squeeze out the few bits of lemon juice and added tonnes of sugar to make it taste okay. yeah, we didnt drink it, but the teacher did. haa.
well, those days were the best.



AND today was the stock-take for stepbangdoor. then made the way for job-interview. had dinner &homesweethome.


these were taken a week ago, whereby we tried the least to mug but failed.
AND PLEASE say hello to the swollen eyes&face&nerdyspecs&my freckles(:

YES.
theres training tomorrow(:

met peishi&cyn cause we end our papers at 4
took a cab there since many people were
waiting for the bus down to town.
plus we were dying to sit so SAY NO to bus.

wasnt feeling good in the morning, cause the flu kept
bugging with the red sore eye.
initial plan was to study for that last few hours, but ended
sleeping in the lib&snackbar.


cyn's,pei's,serena's presents &
my chocfudge muffins which i baked
the previous night.

&while waiting for amys arrival.
so when we thought we received a call from cyn
saying that they were walking over,
zhijun&emily took out their lighters and start lighting the 19candles.
&amy hohhhh, please appreciate cause we had a HARD TIME
lighting and keeping the FIRE for you!
&i had to use my big stout body to block the wind from blowing!
hmm i suppose it was the dress instead!
look how short the candles had shrunk when you came. HAHA

it was quite sometime we see each other, eversince study
break has started except for the two-ps&cyn.
&it was probably one of the better dinner with the girlfriends so far (:



initial plan was to mos.
but due to some issues, we headed to the river to camwhore.



random is love.





we have curlies and shorties.




started to play with amy's tiara.
still, i think they looked scary. HAHA.
with the love.


LAST BUT NOT LEAST


then, homesweethome.

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